A new year has plopped itself at my feet...ugh! I think every new year we feel the need to get motivated about something. Usually we all seem to jump on the diet and exercise train. I have, yet again, and a lot of others I know as well. Minus the diet part, I am not eating lettuce, fruits or veggies every day :) I don't feel like changing my diet, if I exercise 4-5 times a week then life will be good. I am not slack at working out. When I leave the gym I am dripping with sweat, so if I want a few cookies I will have them. Really whats the point if you can't enjoy junk food? I have promised myself that I will have good work outs and not stress about the number that pops up on the scales. Mark and I don't own a set of scales, I don't need scales to tell me I have added a few pounds...I can see it! Now, I know that I am 27 these days and that fit little body I had at 20 is way past gone :( I could spend my whole life in the gym and never get back to that! As we get older our shape just changes extra weight or not. I have accepted it. Just in case people reading think I am crazy for thinking I am "fat", don't think that. I know in my mind that I am not "fat", I am an average 8, well almost. I can't fit comfortable in 5 and the 8 is a little big, but if you asked I would say I am a size 8. I weight a whopping 147 lbs, but I am 5'9" so it's ok. So we all have our "magic" number for weight. I think I am happy and skinny at 135 lbs. That's just me...but I promise I will not be killing myself to get there. If I lose weight by going to the gym that's great, if not oh well I need the exercise to stay healthy.

Being back in the gym several days a week makes me happy. I dread it all day long, but after I go I feel so great. Its me time in some way. I crank up my ipod and just work off my day. When I leave I feel less stressed and relaxed...kinda strange(LOL) So now my crazy side note...when I get back in the gym I feel suddenly slimmer. I know this is not possible, but I think it just makes me feel that much better about myself. When I look in the mirror I swear I see a difference, I hope every woman feels this way when she works out :) Truthfully I know we all want to see results, but if we can FEEL like we see them even if they are not there, now that is empowering!!! So much love to all my girlfriends working that rump, I am right there with ya. Keep it up ;) Even though we are all already FABULOUS!!!!!