I like to think I am a pretty simple person. Here in our house we have been debating on getting new phones. Right now we have Nextel's and they suck! My calls are dropped constantly and most of the time I can't even have a phone conversation because every other second the phone is cutting in and out. Our contracts are finally fixing to expire and I am JUMPING for joy...bye bye Nextel, you have been nothing more than a waste of money. So we are going back to Verizon, which is what I had before my lovely husband talked me into adding a Nextel on his plan. (this is why men should not be able to make decisions..LOL j/k) So now my internal battle begins... Mark and I would like to get a Blackberry, but I am fighting myself over the extra $30 a month per phone for Blackberry service...UGH! I am a total cheapskate, and I hate to waste a dollar. I still have dial up Internet if that tells you anything. Not all my choice, we live in the country and don't have a DSL option and I refuse to pay $60 a month to play on the web. Kinda funny when I am considering a Blackberry, right? So I have one more month to make my mind up. I have been running the math and I figure it will cost an extra $50 bucks a month. I know this doesn't sound like much, but I can stretch $50 a long way. Mark says "you only live once April, you have to splurge every now and then." I know, I know...but really this ends up being an extra $600 a year. That right there is almost enough for me to say no!!! I am such a loser. So this battle will rage on in my head at least for the next 30 days :(

Sometimes I wish I wasn't so obsessive. I don't even know where I get it from, no one in my family is quite like me. I obsessive over everything and I want everything to be perfect and I constantly feel bad because I just don't think I do enough of anything. I can't sleep at night. When I go to bed I think of all the things I should have done through out the day...surely this can not be healthy! Some people may call me strange...I am what I am. You will surely see how obsessive I am if you walk into my house. People joke about all the groceries in my house. I have a walk in pantry that is overflowing and not because it's not organized just because I have that much food in there. That's not the half of it! I have 3 deep freezers full of food, and I have a whole walk in closest in my house that is full of cleaning and personal care items. It is almost comical being that it is just Mark and me :) I have a small accordion file where all the bills are located by due date, then I have a separate book where I write all that information again, I have no idea why. I have gotten better about some things. I use to check our eclectic meter every day to see how much energy we were using. I stopped that awhile back, probably because as much as I tried to control our energy consumption, I could never get it as low as I wanted so with every daily check of that meter I was disappointed. I know someone is reading this and thinking I am crazy and maybe in need of help. I don't need help, really its just me...I have accepted it! I guess we all have our issues. I am glad that I am obsessive over saving money, having plenty of food and just trying to be super girl :) It could be worse...I think!


just a small idea of what my closest looks like.


One of the walls in my pantry.